You may be aware that there is some mystery about my past. That mystery is around my younger brother and what he did to me.
My younger brother is !prosaix.
I vowed I would keep his identity secret because I have always been accused of ruining his future. But you know what? Right now I don't care. I am sick of wondering "Am I ruining his future".
We don't talk. He doesn't see me or hear me. I don't exist in his world. When I am home in Mauritius I talk to him and he doesn't hear. We used to be the bestest of best friends. Everybody tells me it's my fault - I am sure somewhere along the line it is.
I won't reply to comments on this journal.
Aaliyah









I would be immensely proud to have you as my sister. And I know that 'knowing' somebody online is not the same as knowing them in person, but I feel like I really get you and so often you seem to 'get' me. If I was related to you, or could call you a friend 'In real life' then nothing would make me happier. You never cease to inspire me.
No matter what someone has done to you, I don't believe there's anything unforgivable. Especially not when the other wants so badly to make things right.
I hope things work out for you.
Also blaming someone for ruining your future is just a way to take the blame off yourself, we all make our own choices and unless you physically held him down or locked him in a room I find it hard to believe that you ruined his future.
Yes there are always two sides to the story and maybe there is a good reason for him not talking to you, who knows, but I hope someday you guys can reconcile because life is too short and unpredictable. Also cute name.